xSweetxBeautyx

I'm annoyed and frustrated right now. I am determinded to figure out how to use Corel Painter X. And of course I naturally suck with computers, and I have a slow older version too.
    
   Right now I am reading the entire user guide to Painter X, wich is very very long. And I will stop at nothing to get some art classes. I want nothing more than to learn how to use a computer to enhance my drawings, and to become better at drawing.
               I still have to go dig my old scanner out so I can scan some of my drawings in. Along with seeing what I can do with them on Painter X, if i ever figure out the controls. I need a computer geek with me. I'm going to go call my older brother.
    
   Though he's not much of a geek anymore, since he got in the navy and got all buff. It's kinda creepy. Because when he was in his teen, music from star wars was like his theme song. And now it's that song Catwalk, i think that's what it's called. The one that goes "I'm too sexy for my shirt, I'm too sexy for my car", something like that. I love that song. My uncle use to play it all the time.

I'm so very frustrated right now. I finally found art classes near me, but of course I can't take em. At least not till I get my driver lisences which my dad seems totally against.


      I've been thinking a lot lately. About what I want to go to school for, if anything when I get out of high school. I love art, and I have a passion for it. It would be amazing if I could make art my life. I'm just worried about money for school and supplies, along with other stuff. I could figure something out. But the main thing I'm worried about is wheather I'm ever going to be good enough. I've recently got a painting in my state's art exhibit for high school students. But I wasn't even trying with that, I was really just experimenting.
  

  Plus I'm told that the art field is competive, which I'm not very much of. If someone is better than me, which a lot are, I will let it get to me. At first at least. I have no idea what to expect.
    

       I'm not a very outgoing person with people I haven't know long. Plus I'm homeschooled, so my social skills aren't all that. I'm going to be murdered, aren't I?
      
    Anyways, hopefully I can get some of my work up on this site soon so I can see what people think. I'm very bad with computers, so who knows.